Thoughts 💭

How I’m feeling ?

It’s so easy to get distracted. We get lost in what’s going around us, where we are, and sometimes that can cause you to feel hopeless. For me, I’m learning to deal and control my emotions.

This past week, my mind and body just haven’t been aligned with one another. Everything felt off, I was feeling down,sad, lifeless, and the crazy part is idk why. I just laid in bed to feel it and let the emotions flow. I told myself, it’s ok to not be ok, although it was very uncomfortable, I had to just go through it. I’m an over thinker so my mind was nonstop.

I hate when I get this way because I will literally shut the world out. For me, that makes things worse because I hate being alone. I love being around people, I enjoy the company of others, but when I start feeling weird, I become weird and the world becomes nonexistent. I have close family and friends I can talk to, but I rather not simply because almost everyone are dealing with things in their world. I hate feeling like a burden on others.

Overall, I have so much to be thankful for. Sometimes I forget how blessed I am, then God always send me reminders. Literally when I’m feeling down and ready to give up, I think about “why I started”, or something will pop up that makes me smile.

I wasn’t sure if I was going to put this out, literally 3 weeks old, but I realized others go through the same. I always get asked, “why I’m always happy or smiling”, “how do I keep going”. My advice to you is to “think positive “, pray for a clear mind and clean heart. Speak greatness over yourself, power of the tongue is real. Get up, take baby steps, step outside, get a breathe of fresh air, journal, write how you’re feeling, or put on music. I promise you’ll feel better. I literally do this for me, to feel better. Do what works for you and makes you feel better. Don’t drown yourself overthinking or worrying about things out of your control.

-ash B